Repurposed Kate's Weekly Update #3

And we're all still here... And growing!!!

I missed Monday by a couple of hours. I apologize for being tardy. I got caught up trying to feed the cows before the rain comes in.

Photo by Matilda Alloway on Unsplash

Hello, Amazing Subscribers... all FOURTEEN of you glorious humans!!

I hope this email finds you well as week #3 of 2024 comes to a close. If you have been with me from the beginning of my Substack journey, you know that a short list of intentions created monumental changes for me in 2023 and inspired me to start Repurposed Kate. The ultimate goal for 2024 is to design a life (with limited resources) in which I am happy, motivated, and self-sufficient. If I can do that at 51 years old, anyone can do it. Thank you for subscribing and holding me accountable to living my intentions and sharing my results in real time. 

This is the THIRD installment of Repurposed Kate's Weekly Update, which means it’s time to hold myself accountable. I guess I'll just jump in and let you know what I've been up to.

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Last Week's Intentions and Results 

Here are a few of my achievements and setbacks from last week: 

1. New Kind of Gratitude:

This has been a game-changer for me. Deciding to express my gratitude to people has enriched my life so much. People like being appreciated. There’s a special kind of joy that comes back to you when you express that.

So…. just do it. Tell one person you appreciate them every day.

I was a dollar short of buying a hot snack at the store the other day. The cashier wouldn’t let me put it back and spotted me the $1. He didn’t expect the money back, but when I came back a couple hours later. He seemed happier to accept my gratitude than the dollar... and it made me feel like a good person.

2. Pay Attention to My Health:

EPIC FAIL!!!!!

I ate garbage food all week. So much sugar. So many donuts (4). And I had a couple of glasses of wine at a social event. I should not be drinking anything with alcohol in it (dangerous territory for a drug addict). My liver is going to be mad at me all week… so will my liver doc when I confess on the 30th.

I’m on a “clean” diet for my liver health, but I’m also underweight after my surgery in December. Not gaining weight is not a problem I’ve had since getting off the meth pipe… Having trouble finding a good way forward.

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I put my heart into these intentions. Some were a success, others a learning experience. Each experience, success or failure, is an opportunity to grow. 

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This Week's Intentions 

Looking ahead, I'm setting up new intentions, leaning in on practical, daily living needs: 

1. Get Real About My Marriage/Divorce:

I’m not supposed to be talking to George, my husband, because of the protective order, but I do. We have taxes to figure out, among other things. He keeps talking to me like I’m an idiot.

He gets butthurt when I tell him he can’t gaslight me anymore. He doesn’t like the word “gaslight.” Boo fucking hoo.

I told him that if he can be sober for a year he can come home. He said, get this… “If I’m not with you, there’s no reason for me to not drink. I’ll quit drinking when you let me be with you again.”

Like I’m a fucking moron.

I need to find a way to give up hoping it will be different. I can’t make him not be the most raging alcohol I’ve ever met. I can’t make him stop raging at me at 2 pm when he drinks…. that’s every day he’s not away for work.

I need to get my head right about that.

2. Be selective about my side hustles:

You know how some of your favorite rock band were awesome when they were high, then they got sober and the music went to shit?

When I was on meth, I built and promoted websites. It was as easy as breathing.

I’m not on meth anymore (6/15/17), but I need money and I have taken on a couple of jobs for a couple of local businesses. It is so hard to do without drugs. Hard for me, anyway.

I think I’m going to have to give up those gigs… Otherwise, I’m probably going to need meth… Or some kind of legal speed. Legal speed is a trap for a meth-head.

Dang it. I’m pretty good at it when I’m high. And I need the money… UGH!

Frustration abounds.

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I am committed to these intentions and will put all my effort into achieving them. 

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Who I’m Reading on Substack

I am only mentioning one writer this week because she should have been included last week. Dear

Ms. Writer

, I apologize for not including you in the debut of this feature. You get me. Thank you for your contribution to my healing.

I am reading others this week, but I’ll also be reading them in the coming week. I’ll have the list for you next Monday.

Your Turn 

I would love to hear about your intentions and how you're progressing. Please share your thoughts, your wins, and your lessons in the comments. Let's grow together and support each other. We’re all on this journey of growth and self-improvement together. 

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Thank you for being a part of my journey and for walking this path with me. Remember, it's not about perfection; it's about progress. See you next week with more updates and reflections. 

Stay Motivated, 

Kati Kate Katherine

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Remember, your journey is unique, and your story is important. Keep setting intentions, keep striving, and keep growing.